Rant!

I am writing this here because i know that no one will ever read it and as such i just need to rant about a few things so i can get them off my chest. Now, i know that i am not the more incredible guy out there. I don't make stright A's, i am not atheltic or overly hansome. I don't have a chiveled jaw or a washboard set of abs. I don't make millions of dollars a year. I am not what you would call Mr. Perfect or a babe magnet. In fact i am average, i am vanilla ice cream and i know that i am. I am not complaining either, thats just what i am. But, regardless of a chemical imbalance i do think i have some good qualities.
With these good qualities and average looks i feel that what i lack in other areas i make up for in sincerity and charm. Why is it then that every girl that i think is beautiful, or attractive to me could not careless if i lived or died. Sure i am thier "friend", but if i was to say, adios and catch you later, they would not even bat an eyelash. What are these women looking for in a guy? Thats my question, and if i don't have it, how can i get some of what they want? Also, another infuriating point, how is it that every other girl i am "friends" with, who i have no romantic feelings for whatsoever, thinks i am amazing and have the hots for me.It's terribly frustrating and believe it or not, i am kind of sick of it.
I just wish i knew what they all wanted. Whatver, basically i am just getting a bunch of crap off my chest that has been festering there all semeseter. Its really does not matter in the long run i guess. But i was just feeling this rant comeing on and had to get it down. Kind of a break it up and cough it up type thing. I guess its just a culmination of a lot of things. Mostly finals and the semester ending. Problems with health and problems with friends and things happening that make you sit down and really think about what they heck you are doing in this life. Whats it all mean really? Whats the point of all this? The funny thing is that i know the answers to that, thats the big picture, i am concerned with the little picture. How do i do all those things i am supposed to do? Its all so confusing... But i guess that if you don't put your self out on a limb you can't pick the best of the crop.
Anyway, just something on my mind i guess and i really need to get so sleep here as well.